This Is How It Seems To Me

…Life is only therapy

Real expensive and no guarantees…

This will probably be an unusual blog post. I’m trying to stay positive in the midst of this storm called life. Austin is fine. No, he’s great! He’s crawling and pulling up all on his own. He’s accomplished so much in the past 2 months and I couldn’t be prouder. He inspires and amazes me every day. I’m trying to put on a happy face for him, but I know he feels my anxiety. And I really need to pray about that.

Austin would’ve had an MRI a few weeks ago, but Children’s Medical Center didn’t have their ducks in a row. Mind you, we’d had the appointment for 2 months. They didn’t get the release form from Austin’s cardiologist. We arrived at 6:30 for the procedure and the cardiologist’s office doesn’t even open until 9:00. By 10:00, they still hadn’t “heard back” from the Cardiologist’s office. They asked me to go sit back in the waiting room, to which I replied we would be rescheduling. Austin had to fast for the procedure and I wasn’t about to make it an all day thing. He doesn’t understand why he cannot eat or drink. So, Children’s is back on my bad list. We go back May 20th for the MRI. I’m going to call ahead of time to MAKE SURE they’ve obtained all the paperwork they need.

As most of you know, I’m a stay at home mom. My husband has a job that awards me the opportunity to stay home and take care of our son. It’s a good thing I’m able to because he has some sort of therapy or appointment 3-4 days a week. I guess I’m more of a “stay and go” mom, because it seems like we’re always on the go.

My husband was laid off on Friday.

My heart sank when he called and told me the news. The economy is a scary situation. There were several layoffs at his company last year, but we were blessed that he wasn’t included. Like many businesses, his company is having to cut corners and he happened to be in one of those corners. Of course, my husband bought a new truck a month ago. The timing couldn’t be worse. On the bright side, he won’t have to pay the insane gas prices to fill it up because he won’t really be driving it.

My main concern was our health benefits(for Austin), but thank God our benefits will continue for another 6 months, possibly longer. When you have a child with a disability, insurance is imperative. I’m trying not to think too far into the future. We’re just taking this day by day.

I don’t want anyone to feel sorry for us. We will be okay. We have faith. This is just one of those unfortunate events in life that we really have no control over.

Then Jesus said to his disciples: “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. For life is more than food, and the body more than clothes. Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds! Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life. Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest? Consider how the wild flowers grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today, and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, how much more will he clothe you—you of little faith! And do not set your heart on what you will eat or drink; do not worry about it. For the pagan world runs after all such things, and your Father knows that you need them. But seek his kingdom, and these things will be given to you as well.”

No more bad news, on with the good stuff…you know, pictures of Austin:
He makes me smile.